Sometimes It Just Feels So Heavy

I'm sitting here looking through the blog of a couple who adopted a one year old girl with cerebral palsy from Ethiopia. I'm watching the video of the moment when they met her, and I'm crying.

Yesterday I looked through the waiting list of Bethany Christian Service's infants from Hong Kong. Most of them have downs syndrome plus other complications like leukemia, congestive heart failure and hearing loss. I didn't even look at the older children.

It hurts so much to see this kind of need. Oh how I want to open up our home and help them! I don't even have the words for what I'm feeling. I used to look at "gotcha day" videos on people's blogs and cry, and I thought it was because I was longing for the day when that would be us meeting our kids. But I think there's something more. There's a mixture of pain and beauty in it all. You see the desperate circumstances and you know in your heart that it's terrible. Children that are hungry and sick and fatherless. You hate it, the pain and poverty that sin has brought about in our world. Oh God, how I long for the day when You will make it all right!

Help us in the meantime, Father, to do what Jesus said in Matthew 25 -- give food to the hungry, drink to the thirsty, welcome strangers, clothe the naked, visit the sick and come to the prisoners.

Thank You Lord, for opening our eyes to the need that we were really blind to. Thank You for taking us on this journey.